A Father's Truth...

" Raven "

Written by Levi Johnson 10/05/2006

Baby Raven, you're my dearest, most beautiful,sweet little angel...

Our separation inflicts a feeling on my heart so very painful...

I fell in love with you ever since the first day you were born...

And on that day I pledged allegiance to you, and my loyalty was sworn...

You are the absolute most important thing in my life...

Next would be your mother, who will soon be my wife...

Together- the two of you are the foundation to keeping my mind stable...

And in my heart you provide me with the hope that I need to be able...

Able to provide my full protection and always keep food on the table...

Because no matter what needs to be done, I'll do-no matter how I'm labeled...

For without you-my sweet baby girl...

Daddy would lose his whole entire world...

Do you remember the nights I'd put you to sleep when I'd sing?

God, I hate myself now for leaving when my phone would ring...

Lord knows that if I had known that this is what the future would bring...

I would have gotten a real job and not involved in an undercover sting...

Listen sweetheart, Daddy has a confession to make...

Please believe me-because all my courage this will take...

For the longest time, I've had a problem that's very shameful to admit...

Realize that Daddy's sorry for it and an application for recovery I will submit...

Actually, I already have, I have placed it into God's hands...

And for his help and understanding, I'll do whatever he demands...

But don't think for a second that Daddy loves anything more then he does you...

Hopefully, one day you''ll understand that it's a sickness-much different then the flu...

For years-our family and your mother have done nothing but suffer...

But by being the victim of my own addiction has been even tougher...

Never did I take the time to look at my own twisted ways...

I was too busy chasing the dope and the money for days and days...

So now, here it is that I sit, around others just like myself...

Well, not exactly, they're still excited over tales of their past wealth...

I-on the other hand-am tired of the stories of my fame being told...

For each word that is spoken of my past-does nothing but pollute my soul...

It reminds me of you and my negligence, and how I had a choice...

A Choice that affected every bedtime and whether or not you'd hear my voice...

I'd be telling you how precious you are and how much I love you...

I'd be by your mother's side and not missing you as your grew...

I'd sing to you each and every night...

To protect you-like a Pitt bull I would fight...

I'd greet you with a smiling face every morning you'd wake...

and thank God for every breathe that you take...

I thank God for blessing my heart with the feeling of conviction...

Because throughout all this self-inflicted pain of addiction...

I can finally see how I was and my past condition...

And build from it and gather a new prediction...

Which is, my innocent and pure little soul...

Soon enough Daddy's gonna regain control...

Control of his life and better decisions he makes...

Because for you, Sweet Raven I'll do whatever it takes...

I love you Baby Girl
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